i think in illustrator

yes, you read right. i have finally crossed the border and am now officially insane. fuck me. so last night, as i was doing my homework, i erased a line that i drew and this is what went on in my head immediately after i erased it:

shit! COMMAND Z! COMMAND Z! UNDO! UNDO! FUCK (as in fuck, i wish i didn't erase it because i can't just do "redo," as i'm not actually drawing IN illustrator right now). [brain pause, processing what just happened] wait....FUCK!!!... i can't believe i just thought that. shit. oops.

yes, exactly.

not only am i shamu, but i am now loopy [enter the "crazy person" music here] shamu.

it's just getting worse & worse as i age. i'm sooo fucked. yeah, and how about that birthday coming up. good lord. can it not? can't i just be like my sister (BEFORE YOU FREAK OUT FOR ME SAYING THAT, please continue reading to find out why) -- how she can remain 5, even when she's "35?" can i be ..... well, i think i'm liking 26. so can't i just stay 26 forever? she (the devil incarnate/satan) somehow knows the trick....